My parents are in their 60s and it really sucks seeing them old. My dad has been an alcoholic ever since I was little. But now as he grows old he’s very emotionally sensitive. Even if a minor thing happens he will take it too seriously and drink like there is no tomorrow and doesn’t eat anything at all. It’s been two days he has been excessively drinking and not eating much giving my mom a hard time. He has already experienced a heart attack twice and is taking medications for the same. I know he will die pretty soon but the weird silence in the house is just super depressing and killing me not wanting to do any work. I am in my 20s working towards my life and career but it’s hard to concentrate on anything when things are like this at home. Sometimes I wish I was born to some other family or was not born at all because it really questions my own existence. I can’t talk much to him to leave alcohol or leave thinking because he himself is a grown adult and I don’t have a say in anything.